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My dumb ass forgot my password to this thing again.
But, that wasn’t my only problem....

Apart from a few months of just apathetic personal hell... my wife had a surgery that went wrong, and she nearly died in the hospital. It’s been three weeks since then, and she’s made progress in her recovery...but there are still many things that she still needs help with. I’ve been making all of our meals, in addition to TRYING to keep up with online classes (pretty sure I’m failing), going to work, working over time since she is STILL out of work, and then we both had to quarantine for a while...because our dumb ass roommate is careless and brought that shit into our home.

So needless to say, sketching had NOT been on my mind at all lately. Rather, I’ve been more stressed out than usual with everything happening.

My sleep schedule isn’t even normal anymore....

I fear that I’m just unraveling at this point. As if there’s so many threads that are frayed and loose. I do my best to be her rock and do right by us, but I keep getting snagged and torn with tasks that shouldn’t be hard... it’s just hard to do them right now. I’m out of spoons, my brain feels swollen.

In conclusion, I’m not going to be as active on here as I was. Not that I was totally diligent before this hiatus, but... I don’t know, I feel like anyone who reads these journals kind of expects it.

I hope everyone is doing okay, though.
Stay safe, stay healthy.
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WHAT THE HELL.

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WHY must dA make the changes that it does? What the hell am I looking at?

Does anyone recommend a new art platform? Because I'm getting all the more closer to dipping out. But...ugh. Nostalgia sucks.


How is everyone?

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It seems like anytime I take a good period of absence from dA, something new happens to it. What the hell is this layout? I see the option to switch from dark, to light, to "dinosaur", but it doesn't do much either way. It's a color palette adjustment, at best. Oh well...


With the semester coming to a close, I can see the light. Sort of. It's a bit of a blow that one of the two classes I'm taking won't count towards my certification, but....it wasn't useless knowledge. I can still use the skills and what I've learned towards my career later on. Though now I'm wondering if it's really going to benefit (the career path) because given the current outbreak....well, it's not an essential job. So that's something to think about.


Motivation comes and goes, but I found it best to do what entices me in the moment. If it's for my leisure, it doesn't make sense to have a schedule and force myself to make something. Either it wont happen or it DOES happen but it's garbage because I wasn't doing it for fun. There are still days where I hyper-focus on art stuff, it's just that sometimes it's crafts. What else does one do in a lock down, but create little projects here and there? And yes, it's been lifted, but you're not going to see me out there any time soon without a proper notice of "we have a vaccine!" ....mostly because there's no "sell by" date on a damn virus.


How has everyone been doing? Any tips on keeping sane and not stir crazy?

We recently invested in getting HBO because "there's nothing to watch on Hulu or Netflix or Disney+" .... *rolls eyes* well of course if one exhausts all of ONE genre, then there's "nothing to watch". Thankfully I'm more versatile with my movies/shows. Though, I get it. In a round about way, I sort of do.


I think if I get back into writing, I'll likely look to WordPress. I hear good things come of this and a "wattpad"? Never heard of it, but I suppose having some kind of blog would be cool. The question is, would it be for stories or like a diary? I see a lot of people doing both, but I would like to keep it to one set theme. Maybe have to separate accounts? Perhaps.


Tumblr would be an option, but I don't think it's meant for writing. It's more of an art/gif/meme sort of platform. Sure, I've seen people post fanfiction on there, but I'd hate to have a whole log of text taking away from other such content.


I need to sleep. Or get a coffee, I'm not sure. Kind of want both? But that would be stupid.


Ugh. Just end me, please.

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Tomoya Sigh Icon 
So. Who else is losing their mind with this damn virus lock down thing? And having a curfew?

LORD have mercy. I've never felt so stir crazy in my life. And of course to top it all off, my mind wanders to places I would rather be. MUCH rather.
First, it started with Denver, as there is much to do there. Culture, food, activities...but still Colorado. 
So I ventured further!
Shaka Badge 
Hawaii. A major hot spot in my memory bank. Only this time, it was as pleasant as it was painful.
I went back in my memories to visit a select few shops, and how I had come to be acquainted with a few of the shop keeps. Conversing in very basic japanese and English, in a way that was similar to that of the "Spanglish" I was used to growing up. They were such good people...I wonder how they're doing..
I found myself wanting to go back. Not for the weather this time, but for the familiar culture. Especially in Shirokiya. 
Which I will happily provide a link for: www.shirokiya.com/#Directory     [link]

And other stuff I used to attend, like Kawaii Kon : kawaiikon.com/

(F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku 
   
I feel like whenever I bring up "those days" I just sound like some bitter old bitch, reminiscing about the past. My life isn't horrible, for the record. I just GREATLY miss things from the past that I wish I could revisit in person. Around here....I don't have much of a connection at all. Not in the way England or Hawaii had on me. Two TOTALLY different places, yeah, but...man.

And then, I venture further. To Japan.

light cherry blossoms c green Nippon cherry blossoms c green 
I was there when I was a baby, until about four years old. I don't remember any of it, save for like a ten second memory of Tokyo Disneyland. If I could go back now, as an adult....and just appreciate it for all that it is.
Yeah, I'd go to Akihabara, Ikebukuro, but also to Kyoto and Takayama.
Shrines, food, sights, art, anime, fashion...I want to see it all, and remember it this time!

Ugh. One day.
And then I guess I'll be good for another 20+ years.
I'm just so tired of feeling homesick. I envy those who were born and raised here in a way that they'll never having that feeling of missing home...I'm happy to have traveled like I did, but there's something about a nomadic lifestyle that gives on the urge to leave again. But you can't quite seem to scratch that itch.

Shout out to KamiStarr for the core membership :cry: I totally don't deserve this kindness, but I greatly appreciate this gift.
:heart:
Thank you!

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Tomoya Sigh Icon 
So. Who else is losing their mind with this damn virus lock down thing? And having a curfew?

LORD have mercy. I've never felt so stir crazy in my life. And of course to top it all off, my mind wanders to places I would rather be. MUCH rather.
First, it started with Denver, as there is much to do there. Culture, food, activities...but still Colorado. 
So I ventured further!
Shaka Badge 
Hawaii. A major hot spot in my memory bank. Only this time, it was as pleasant as it was painful.
I went back in my memories to visit a select few shops, and how I had come to be acquainted with a few of the shop keeps. Conversing in very basic japanese and English, in a way that was similar to that of the "Spanglish" I was used to growing up. They were such good people...I wonder how they're doing..
I found myself wanting to go back. Not for the weather this time, but for the familiar culture. Especially in Shirokiya. 
Which I will happily provide a link for: www.shirokiya.com/#Directory     [link]

And other stuff I used to attend, like Kawaii Kon : kawaiikon.com/

(F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku (F2U) naruto and sakura - narusaku 
   
I feel like whenever I bring up "those days" I just sound like some bitter old bitch, reminiscing about the past. My life isn't horrible, for the record. I just GREATLY miss things from the past that I wish I could revisit in person. Around here....I don't have much of a connection at all. Not in the way England or Hawaii had on me. Two TOTALLY different places, yeah, but...man.

And then, I venture further. To Japan.

light cherry blossoms c green Nippon cherry blossoms c green 
I was there when I was a baby, until about four years old. I don't remember any of it, save for like a ten second memory of Tokyo Disneyland. If I could go back now, as an adult....and just appreciate it for all that it is.
Yeah, I'd go to Akihabara, Ikebukuro, but also to Kyoto and Takayama.
Shrines, food, sights, art, anime, fashion...I want to see it all, and remember it this time!

Ugh. One day.
And then I guess I'll be good for another 20+ years.
I'm just so tired of feeling homesick. I envy those who were born and raised here in a way that they'll never having that feeling of missing home...I'm happy to have traveled like I did, but there's something about a nomadic lifestyle that gives on the urge to leave again. But you can't quite seem to scratch that itch.

Shout out to KamiStarr for the core membership :cry: I totally don't deserve this kindness, but I greatly appreciate this gift.
:heart:
Thank you!

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